I can feel myself enshrouding in isolation..
Its a curious temptation.
The desire to be alone
when all I crave
is to connect.
Birthdays are of only
one use to me:
Comparing myself
to previous incarnations
and
future assumptions
about where
this time and energy will place me.
Its always the hardest for my partners
When they want to get inside
And I let them pretend
By creating an outer layer of myself
That protects the most vulnerable parts of me from
Being seen. I cannot handle being seen,
as much as I desire.
I’m not sure there are many of us that can.