I can feel myself enshrouding in isolation..
Its a curious temptation.
The desire to be alone

when all I crave

is to connect.
Birthdays are of only

one use to me:
Comparing myself

to previous incarnations

and
future assumptions

about where
this time and energy will place me.

 
Its always the hardest for my partners
When they want to get inside

 
And I let them pretend
By creating an outer layer of myself

 
That protects the most vulnerable parts of me from
Being seen. I cannot handle being seen,
as much as I desire.
I’m not sure there are many of us that can.