Caked in Memories 12/07/17

I can feel myself enshrouding in isolation..
Its a curious temptation.
The desire to be alone

when all I crave

is to connect.
Birthdays are of only


one use to me:
Comparing myself

to previous incarnations

future assumptions

about where
this time and energy will place me.

Its always the hardest for my partners
When they want to get inside

And I let them pretend
By creating an outer layer of myself

That protects the most vulnerable parts of me from
Being seen. I cannot handle being seen,
as much as I desire.
I’m not sure there are many of us that can.